10 days and counting...

Yup, 10 days until I move to the other side of world.
I am excited.
I wish packing would go faster and better.
I had to clean out my porn and toys. Most were useless anyway. I mean, if it had any seepage of whatever of the fuck it was made out of or if I had them for longtime (mind you, I go a longtime with out using sex toys.) I kept my two eggs, the glass dildo, and the S&M items. I will have those things shipped to me in June or August. I also have my little outfits.
What, you ask, will I do with all these things...perhaps take some photos for this blog...you know I am going to be bored at night.

The other night I had a dream. I dreamt I was the assistant to a woman who specialized in female orgasms and sexuality and sexual freedom. She seemed like a cross between Violet Blue and Eve Ensler in both appearance and demeanor. I think my subconscious is trying to tell me something: I am not "loving" me enough. And it is true. I am very down on my body and appearance. Not that I am doing anything to change that. The part of me that doesn't care what other people think of me is still pretty strong. It just gets tiring hearing over and over again that you are not pretty, sexy, desirable, wanted, loved, smart, or adored because of your weight or race. Yes, I said race. I am tired of being a sub-genre or fetish. The part of me that doesn't care what other people think believes that if you have to love me for who I was yesterday, who I am today, and who I will be tomorrow. I don't know...I feel a little trapped right now. As I have been telling myself the past couple of days, I think I have lost myself.

Half-Nekkid Kanji !!

To further celebrate my upcoming move to Japan, I bring you this:

*the kanji says: Looking for a Japanese Boyfriend*
Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday!

The Wet Rain

Well, it finally stopped raining but there is still a raging storm in my head.
I am short on funds to buy my plane ticket. I am expecting a check soon, but I want to get on a particular flight and there are only so many seats left.
So I am kinda stressed out.

Other than that things are great.
I turned in my visa application and everything is running smoothly.
I am still trying to sell my car. No takers yet. I don't think I am asking for too much.
People are generally cheap but in these financial times one needs to thrifty when dealing with big ticket items. Hopefully, somebody will see the car and make an offer...


How much would you pay for this car. It is a 2001 and only has 52,316 miles on it?

Anywho...it is raining. And when it is raining I either really sleepy or really horny. Today I am both. I actually took a nap a dreamt I was filming myself masturbating. As you can imagine, I woke up in quite a state. I wonder if I was moaning in my sleep???

Now for some webcam tit pictures...whoohoo

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XOXO

I miss....

It is official: I miss the sex.
I do.
I miss being held.
I miss being desired.
I miss being kissed.
I miss being penetrated.
I miss being stirred into an orgasmic frenzy.
I miss hard cocks. It is true.

This is the rebirth.
I will be posting more for now on.
Yes, even though I am moving to Japan I will continue to post.
I'll change the banner to "Naked Mistress in Japan". Hahahaaaa!

You know the old question "What happens to your porn when you die?", well what do you do with your porn when you are moving to a new country. Most of my vibrators I can get rid of for sure. But not my glass dildos...hell no. Even if I rarely use them, I still will "need" them.
In preparations for my move, I will have some prepackaged boxes for my family to send me. I may make a box for my smaller sexual aides.

The VHS tapes I will toss. ...Yeah I must start getting rid of those items that are no longer good.